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Cindy Maddera


I met Xander for dinner on Tuesday. We hadn't seen each other since he helped me paint my office. I think we were both craving an update. We talk about the dark parts of things and then laugh at the ridiculousness of living this crazy life. I always think I'll impart some sort of wisdom and good juju onto Xander, but really the wisdome and good juju comes from that kid. I learned about man candles (candles shaped like men) and I've just been walking around saying "man candles" for no reason. Shout it! MAN CANDLES! It's like putting nuts and gum together (only a small few will catch that and giggle...sigh). Xander reminded me of something. He was talking about someone new and he got that particular smile on his face while he was talking. He'll completely deny this; he denied it when I mentioned it at dinner. I think he was just unaware that he was doing it. Do you know what I mean by that particular smile? It's that smile you get when you think of someone special. It's the smile I get when I tell stories of my time with Chris. I also get that smile when I talk about my friends or I remember something Chad or Talaura sent me in text. It's that smile that you just don't feel on your face, but in your heart. I know that sounds corny, but I know you know what I'm talking about. That smile that tugs on the heart strings. Because I think all of us have some sort of crap going on in our lives right now, I want us all to take a collective moment to think about something that invokes that kind of smile. Then, I want us to hold onto that thought all day. This is sort of like an all day meditation practice. Other thoughts and crap are going to filter in, just like in meditation. And let them. That's just how the brain works. Let those crap thoughts filter in and then make a conscious effort to go back to the smile thought. Just for today.

I think we are all going to have a good Love Thursday.

Thank you to everyone who has donated to this month's Donors Choose project. That's my smile thought for today.