Sunday evening, mom and I cooked a dinner of roasted asparagus, grilled Ahi tuna, and macaroni shells from TJs. When we sat down at my little table to eat, my mom paused and I realized she was waiting for me to say grace. I have to admit I've been hit or miss on this lately. I might remember to say grace once or twice a week if I'm lucky. For weeks after Chris passed, I wouldn't remember to say it at all. I am thankful for the reminder to be grateful for the little good things that happen every day, even if it's just a simple meal I've prepared for myself. It was sort of the kick in the pants I needed. I've been feeling a little sorry for myself lately. I know, I'm probably entitled to a little self pity, but it just doesn't feel right. It's like wearing uncomfortable clothes. People, I don't even wear uncomfortable shoes. I'm working on throwing out the uncomfortable clothes. There's a plan in my head for fixing that. I just need to make more of an effort to implement that plan. For now, I'll start with a little gratitude every day. Wednesday evening my cable and internet went out. I unplugged everything, plugged everything back in, reset boxes, and even swapped out power strips. Nothing. I called the cable/internet company and waited on hold for about fifteen minutes only to have the tech guy tell me that the service was down in my area. The good news? It had nothing to do with anything on my end. The bad news is that I had nothing. I had an evening of silence. At first this caused a panic bubble to rise up in my chest, but then I settled down on the couch with The Bloggess's new book "Let's Pretend This Never Happened" and it was an hour and half later before I remembered that I still needed to feed the dog. Sometimes it's important to disconnect. I'm thankful for that reminder and I'm thankful that it has encouraged me to seek out more. In fact, I feel a whole weekend of silence is due to happen sometime very soon.
What else? I've heard some friends get some very promising and encourage news towards some good things in their lives. I am so thankful for this and thankful that I can celebrate in their joy. I am thankful that all is well with friends and family after some scary weather. I am thankful for the salad I had for lunch this week because the greens came right out of my backyard. I am thankful for you, as always.
Here's to a wonderful weekend and a very Thankful Friday.