I really thought about not doing an entry today. I've been in a bad place. The things I've written in my journal are not things I'm sure I want others to see. The other day, I wrote a list of things I hate. The truth is, I don't want to revert to old habits. I don't want this blog to return to the unhappy bitch place. Nor do I want to be the cancer blog. There's a lot I just don't want right now. The reality is, I'm sad and cancer is now a major player in my life. That doesn't mean that I've lost. I still have love. I still have Thursdays. I still have plenty of things that I do want. And you know what? I still have a little bit of hope. So I felt that even the slightest attempt at a Love Thursday entry was worth the effort. Because, you see, these entries are a practice. They are a practice in mindfulness and little bit of gratitude. They remind me to see the love and beauty that surrounds us. And we are surrounded.
Even though I cart my camera every where, I just haven't been inspired to take it out and use it. So today, I thought it would be good to look back on older photos and maybe start choosing some things from the past.
Happy Love Thursday!