Those of you who have followed this blog for years know that I don’t make a list of resolutions for the New Year. Last year I made a goal to do something about my health. I wasn’t thinking big things, just the little things like have my eyes checked, go to a dentist, do something about my janky hip. I also made a goal to shed the guilt I tended to feel for being happy. None of those goals worked out very well for me. I never made it to an optometrist or a dentist. I never found a chiropractor and my yoga practice became sketchy. And that whole guilt thing? If anything I felt even more guilty for finding any amount of happiness in the last year.
I have lots of expectations for myself in 2013. Lots of things I want to do. First I’d like to keep my sanity through the next two months. That may mean I spend more time in hibernation or sad things show up on the blog. I don’t know. It’s something that I’ll deal with one day at a time. In the mean time I’ll focus on my health. I’ll finally go to that eye doctor and that dentist. I want to eat better and walk more and I want to get on my mat every day. I have no excuses now and it’s time I really learn to take care of myself. I want to transform myself into that hippy yoga goddess I always wanted to be.
But that’s not all. I want a lot for next year. I want to finish a big project I started on last year. I want to take Mom to Ireland. I want to use my camera more, not the iPhone camera, but my fancy pants camera. That means making an effort to get out on more photo walks and forcing myself to stop when I feel the urge to take a picture. I want to do some Life List things. I want to start teaching yoga again and do more volunteer work. And…and…I’d like to drop that whole guilt thing.
I know it’s a lot. I told you I had great expectations for myself. Here’s to a New Year. May it be filled with all of our great expectations.