For the past year and half Iâve been under this cloud of general malaise. I have all these things I want to do and all these ways that I want to âfixâ? myself but I just canât muster the energy to do anything about it. I guess you could say that Iâve been depressed, but trying really hard not to be by not talking about it or giving myself little pep talks (âcause talking to yourself isnât crazy). I find myself staring at the anti-depression adds feeling like I really need those drugs. I mean not really, but sometimes I think that I do.
Yesterday the cloud seemed to lift. I was standing in the bedroom taking off my jewelry when I yelled to Chris âI feel something that I havenât felt in a really long timeâ?. He asked me what it was and I said âI donât know. I think its hopeâ?. I feel good and not so angry. Itâs like I could drive down the highway without yelling at other drivers. You know what? I think Iâll knit myself some yoga socks. I might even throw in two colors. Iâve never done that before. Iâm thinking orange and yellow.
This makes me very happy! I’m so glad your cloud is lifting. (By the way, my general crustiness only extends to *annoying* happy people. And since you are one of the nicest people I know, I can’t think of anyone more deserving of happiness and hope.)
Hmmm…That’s a political cloud that just lifted off of you, maybe. That’s what’s making me a little happier lately!
I agree, I think it’s partly due to the election results (and the news of Rumsfield). Oh, and Britney filing for divorce from K-fed. It’s like Christmas in um, November!
It is a political cloud. I feel like I’m living back in the United States of America again, instead of the neo-con nightmare evil-twin of a country that they kept trying to pawn off as the U.S., betraying everything we’re supposed to stand for while waving American flags. That’s fucked up.
Down with the neo-cons!
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2006/11/11/22169/163
I am actually starting to feel like there is hope. Cindy your cloud was real! Truth is you felt it greatest because life’s experiences slammed you there! We all, however, felt the weight and fear of were this country was headed. I think even here in Oklahoma there is hope to start picking seats up in the Federal congressional offices after this year. I have not had that feeling for years and years.
Let’s hope this coming Congress understands what they have been given! And that the ones who don’t move forward will be crushed ala Dewine, Allen, Burns, and Lieberman!! I do believe the Dem from Connecticut did get the message.
Cindy, I hope your skies keep clearing! And that all of our hope actually turns into reality!!!